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What would you do if you chose you.

Continuously I am being torn down and pulled in different directions. I am put and put myself into situations that I will then over think. I mentioned before I was done with it. One of these things is continuously being told by a family member that I am hated. I live a big chunk of my life for this member and do everything I can for them. When asking for an apology I was simply told no. In my opinion that means that they accept and agree that everything they had said to me was true. I simply refuse to continuously allow myself to get trodden on. Being told when I cry I am manipulative with my victim mentality. I have done months of working on myself to get myself to the point where I am now. Still chaotic in my emotions but putting myself and my boundaries forward a lot more. I choose me. I want to choose me. I want to live a better life and I am working towards that now I am living a lot better than I was a few months ago, sometimes the only way you can help someone is to choose your...
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What would you do?

What would you do if you are just done but you just don't do what you know you're meant to. what do you do if you continue to get walked on, not setting your boundaries. Not telling people that they upset you, that what they do isn't okay to you. You get upset. You cry. You internally silent scream. You feel fragile but yet know you're strong. You continuously live your entire life for others even though you feel miserable. You have people around you in your home but you feel lonely. Do you know what you do. You stop it. welcome to my fuck you era.
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What the What

I am going through a transition, a change in my life. I want to be better and do better but I feel conflicted and suffocated by thoughts. I need to declutter my house to declutter my brain. It is full and overflowing. I am overwhelmed and over stimulated. I spiralled so much yesterday I felt like I would never calm down. Today I have the come down of the 'tattoo shock' the guilt that I allowed myself to do it despite knowing it wasn't what I wanted.  The change, It's okay. I am good, I am fine. I am great, Everything is always and has worked out for me. I am a problem solver. I can do this life and find the peace and success I am searching for. 
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